Category: Self

Chance Encounter

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We love what we need,

we love what makes us feel good,

we love what is convenient to us.

 

How is it fair to say that we love one person

when there are a couple thousand out there

who we would love more if we met them?

 

Isn’t love is a form of prejudice?

Based on circumstance and compatibility

and a result of a chance encounter?

 

– her

Mouthful of Forevers

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I like it best when my mind is

in a bloodshed battle with my heart.

I like it best when I’m a little broken,

with bruised knuckles and happy pills.

After all, I like poetry more than therapy.

Poems never seem to judge my “wrong” ways.

– her

Balancing love

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My biggest soft spot would have to be my love.

I can love with everything I have and I can love with my soul.

Sometimes it is too much for people and sometimes it is not quite enough.

For the past 18 years, finding the balance in love would be one of the hardest things I have had to deal with. But I have learnt how to love the person who means the world to me in this day to day life. I have learnt to love her flaws, her sins and her demons. I have learnt to love her freckles, her tummy and her curves. I have learnt to love the person she is and I have learnt that loving her is what keeps her going. Loving her makes her not tired of loving everyone else with everything she has.

When she loves herself, she can do anything.

– her

Tears

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Whenever I am lost at sea,

I tilt my head back, stare at the stars and let go of the salt in my tears.

Like an offering of my utmost gratitude

for the way the waves never seems to stop rocking me back to sleep.

– her

17 things I learnt at 17

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Goodbye 17.

  1. Happiness is the consequence of personal effort. It is not a stroke of luck.
  2. Be patient and learn to forgive yourself. Some people will never forgive you, but as long as you forgive yourself, it is enough. You are enough.
  3. It begins and ends in your mind. What you give power to has power over you.
  4. Confidence and insecurities can change your life, make your choice.
  5. Nothing in nature blooms all year round so do not expect yourself to do so.
  6. It is never too late to be whoever you want to be. Live a life that you will be proud of. If you don’t, find the strength to start over.
  7. It is okay to not know what you want yet, do not feel the need to rush to the next big thing. What you are experiencing at the moment is what you need in the future.
  8. Be more concerned with your character than with your reputation.
  9. The timing in which people enter your life is very important.
  10. Love when you are ready, not when you are lonely. The right attention from the wrong individual during a lonely time can fool you into thinking they might be the one.
  11. You should not make any one person your world. The trick is to take what each can give you and build a world from it.
  12. Yes, it still bothers me but I will get over it slowly but surely.
  13. Make peace with the past. Do not let it haunt you as it can’t be changed. It is important to always visit memory lane but never live there. Your life is what is here now.
  14. If you need help, seek it before it is too late. Sometimes, we do need a helping hand.
  15. No one should ever live in an environment of fear, violence and suffering.
  16. Sharing our stories is an important part of healing (that is often overshadowed by our fear, shame and pain).
  17. Love yourself, for you only have yourself at the end of the day. Be proud of who you are and whatever you stand for.

I like living. It is true that sometimes I have been wildly, despairingly, miserably racked with sorrow. But through it all, I certainly still know that being alive is a grand thing.

Hello 18.

– her